sentient marrow

New blog, old title.

2012 was the year of muscle and fat. Serendipitously, by the grace of God, I stumbled into fitness and weight loss. My friend, Nicole, started me on this path with an innocent invitation to her fitness class which led to doing boot camp with her trainer, Lesia. Lesia continues to bless me physically and spiritually. I am half way to my goal in this regard and am using the energy I have gained from this process to continue the evolution of myself proving Newton’s Laws of Motion.

I intend to be intentional and creative this year.

Yesterday and today were difficult for me. Sadness overshadowed my day, whether hormonally-induced or otherwise. Watching home videos from years past that my hubby had transferred onto dvd’s for us for Christmas has been bittersweet. I rejoice at  seeing my children as they have grown up, but the pangs of guilt over seeing how distracted or anxiety-ridden I was as a younger parent has caused my heart to ache.

I read this verse before bed and believe it may be God’s theme for me this year:

“Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”  Psalm 139: 23-24

This drawing was a result of how I have been feeling. It is my plan to do something creative once per day. This is a lofty goal. Today, I gave myself one hour. I am sure some days may be limited to 5 minutes, but hopefully I can stay dedicated throughout the year.