Monthly Archives: February 2013

+46 Soulful Saturday: Week 8

+46 Soulful Saturday

This week’s theme thanks to the theme generator on WordPress.

Italo Calvino said, “The more enlightened our houses are, the more their walls ooze ghosts.” Describe the ghosts that live in your house.

Create art or writing based on the above prompt and post a link, if you so desire.
Here’s my contribution for the week:

The ghosts in my house aren’t only thoughts and memories. Some of them are present in physical matter left behind from years past. Holes in the wall from teenage angst, a last minute carpet bought for the floor that I eventually gave birth to my youngest daughter on, an entryway marking the growth of children over the years.

When I was young, we moved around almost every single year until I was 12. There was no time for physical items to becomes markers of past events. There was no time for bonds to be formed among friends or even family outside my primary unit. No ghosts in those houses and apartments at all. The place that held ghosts for me at that stage of life was my mother’s car. Many road trips and moves were spent in her car where each of the three of us had our designated living area… mine was the back window. I laid against the cold of the back window watching other cars drive by and that was my place. Even though we stopped moving after I turned 12 and my Mom remarried, it took me years to feel at home anywhere other than a car. When I turned 15, my Mom wanted to move again, I told her no. I told her she could move without me, but that I was not moving again. And, truly, I haven’t. I may have lived in a couple different apartments before buying the house we have lived in for 12 years, but they have all been within about an hour of each other. Now, I have a home, ghosts and all.

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+45 Soulful Saturday: Week 7

+45 Soulful Saturday

When I started this project, I truly thought I’d be able to find the time to do something creative each day, no matter how small that thing was. This task has proven more difficult than I imagined. I either need to recommit myself and try harder or accept the fact that it may only be a weekly thing. With that said, I am leaning toward the former.

This week’s theme is masquerade. Go, create. Come back here and share with a link.

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+41 Afternoon is for the dogs

+41 Afternoon is for the dogs

My creative endeavor for the day was to play around with my good friend Susan’s photograph of her three lovable dogs. The composition and lighting of her photograph really made me want to make it look more like an oil painting. It has great triangular composition and reminds me of a de Chirico painting. So, here’s my best try using the tools at hand i.e. Photoshop.

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+39 Soulful Saturday: Week 6

+39 Soulful Saturday: Week 6

Today’s theme is “home” or “messages from home” or “home is where…” As always, write, draw, paint, etc. and if you feel like sharing a link to your work, post it below in the comments section.

Last week’s theme was “real life.” Here is a l ink to my friend’s contribution, as well as my own.

http://tialevings.wordpress.com/2013/02/05/day-34-wilted/

https://sentientmarrow.com/2013/02/04/33-measure-of-a-woman/

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+38 Baby bird return to the nest

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Any mama knows that as much as we want to encourage each one of our babes to fly the nest and pursue their passions as they become adults, we also mourn the loss of the day to day interaction experienced when living together. Today I was granted a rare chance to savor the last few moments of my eldest baby’s transition between child and adult. He decided to come back home to live temporarily until he firms up his plans to possibly move to California. God please grant me the wisdom to use these next few hours, days, months wisely and not to waste them.

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+33 Measure of a woman

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What you see is what you get. I think this image speaks for itself. Life is not fair. You can work out 4-5 times per week for months on end, you can run for miles, you can watch what you eat (and f it up, too) but you can’t change everything.  What do people who do not know me see when they look at me? A fat girl. What do I see when I look in the mirror? 8 times out of 10, a fat girl. 2 times out of 10 I might see all of the hard work I’ve put into reshaping this worn out body, this worn out womb. I might see this holder of five children as something to accept. I doubt I will ever see it as something beautiful. It’s not. But, maybe one day when it’s 6 sizes smaller, I’ll be more at peace with myself and the pendulum will shift.

This is my “Soulful Saturday” theme contribution for the week.

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+32 Soulful Saturday: Week 5

+32 Soulful Saturday

This week’s theme is “real life”. Write about it. Draw, paint, photograph… do something and post a link here, if you like.

I haven’t finished my piece for last week’s theme of fire, but will do so at some point.

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+31 Changing art

A friend of mine’s daughter did this lovely drawing on her computer. She used a similar drawing as her inspiration. I am awed by how much detail in the fur she could attain at her young age and using only a mouse. Looking at the drawing has made me really think about what is and what isn’t art. When I was in art school, the debate was always about whether the crafts: photography, ceramics, fibers, etc… were art or only craft. Now, I sit and look at a drawing made using a computer and wonder how creating art on the computer using a mouse fits into this picture. I wonder what the medium for artist’s will be in a hundred years.

Here is a link to my friend’s daughter’s drawing: http://meorow.deviantart.com/art/Blue-Light-351728399

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+30 Struggle

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The body, the flesh part of this journey of mine, has been making me crazy lately. Three times a week I weigh myself and take a picture of the scale to send to my trainer. For the past 3 months, I’ve been gaining and losing the same eight pounds. Overall, I’ve lost about 55 pounds with most of them coming off when starting a food plan with my trainer on June 22, 2012. Most weeks I do zumba, run, lift weights or do boot camp at least 4-5 times per week and sometimes more than once per day. I’m becoming weary. I’ve been really angry about food for the past month, at least. I’ve been struggling to limit my carb and sugar intake. Seeing that number on the scale at the beginning of the day can dictate the rest of my day. Lower number, happier me which leads to the ability to make better choices. Higher number, pissy me which leads to less motivation and will power. I am at this odd halfway mark stuck in my own personal temporal loop. Why can’t my body comply to shedding a few more pounds without having to limit my food as much? Why do I have to workout so much just to maintain what I have already lost? All that to say, I saw this image and quote from Muhammed Ali this week on Facebook resonated with my soul. I feel that way. I have something in common with Muhammed Ali. 

 

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+29 Gratitude

Wednesday… day of gratitude for the sharing of knowledge from strangers. Yet again, the men on the nepacrossroads.com coal website answered my questions about my coal stoker.

Creatively speaking, I have ideas brewing but nothing coming to fruition. I need to go out and buy oil pastels.

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